I'm 16, and turning 17 soon, soon enough, I'll be graduating high school. I want to graduate at least somewhat happy, but living in this environment is just going to turn me insane. How can anyone be happy with someone who constantly calls them a "whore" and all other things that you should never call your child. All of which, are definitely not true. All of which, if are true, are only true, due to her families doing. Her niece was the reason I was raped, and for that I have had to carry the burden of being tainted for years, and stupidly thinking that my mother would accept it and take care of me, i told her. Two years ago, I let her know what happened, and instead of telling me that she was sorry for letting me go with her niece whom she knew was doing bad things, she called me a "slut" and told me it was my fault. What kind of mother would do that? I don't know how much more I could take of this, of her, I just don't know how much of her I can handle, and for how much longer.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
my mom is bipolar
I wish things were different. I wish God had given me a better family, but when I think about it , the only problem with my family is my mother. So many people think that I'm just complaining and being a brat, but that is definitely not the case. I'm not the type of person that does that. I'm not the type of person that complains about everything, I always deal with what I have and make good of it, because that was how I was raised. It was just until now, when I started to develop my own opinion and really thought for myself, that i realized that my life is not how it should be. There are so many things that my mother has deprived me of, but to make up for it, she bought me material things. Material things that she wanted me to flaunt to everyone, because she wanted everyone to think that she was a great mother. For years, I put up with this, to make her happy. But recently I just want to make myself happy. It may sound selfish, but, I don't give a fuck anymore.